I am still actually alive. It has been quite a while hasn't it? Well with everyone talking about the war, I agree with the war and i don't. I mean no one wants war, and i can't think of any soldier who is excited about the war but they signed up so they have to do what they have to do. I think that we have a good reason to go over there. I am sure that we are not just doing this out of the goodness of our hearts but there is good in what we are doing. Yes we are going to and already have killed innocent civilians but they are getting killed by their own leader everyday. I think that something must be done when the leader of his own country kills thousands of his people by using chemical weapons. and when there are rooms specifically set up to take women into and rape them. And we ust want to sit here in our safe little box and do nothing? I am sure that a part of it is for oil, i have heard different stories of we use a lot of their oil and others saying we use very little of it. But I don't want to pay $10 a gallon for gas do you? Sudam is trying to set these oil wells on fire, here again he is hurting is own people. We will be setting up a new government for them, we will not be taking their oil they will be making a hauling off of it from different countries when this war is all over. Although i don't really think that we should have gone to war without the backing of the UN, i don't think that we should make things even worse by getting pissed off at the french and boycotting everything with the word french in it, and now calling french fries freedom fries. I absolutely think that is ridiculous. We are the most powerful country in the world, so someone has to step up to the plate and do the dirty work. And yes we wouldn't be in this war if there wasn't something in it for us. We have learned many times to stay out of things that don't interest for example the whole Black Hawk Down happening. But this is just the way the world works So that is my opinion on that whole shpeele.

I hope everyone is doing alright, and we can have differences of opinions but there is no need for insulting other people. So I just ask if someone has a different opinion just respect them but disagree with them.

By the way if anyone is interested you should definetely check out the movie Bowling For Columbine, A documentary By Micheal Moore. It is playing at the Fargo Theatre right now. It definetely will put a new perspective on things!

Peace and hair grease!

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I don't really have anything interesting to talk about, my life is pretty boring right now. Hmmmmm....... I am sort of wondering if NDSU is the place for me. I for some reason feel like i am missing out on something somewhere else. I feel like if i don't go and do what i want now i am going to regret it for the rest of my lofe, and no one wants that.

it's all good!

thanks steve and miller for the support even though i don't really deserve it put it all turned out for the good anyways. Miller be glad that you are not in my english class anymore, it is going to be a interesting year between me and you know who. Ughhhhhh i hate ignorant people. I really just wnat to lash out and say everything but i am not going to. But that kid really knows how to get under my skin!!! I just need to remember to breathe!

the other day i had a great breakthrough, well actually not a breakthrough but my eyes just opened a lil more. have you ever seen the movie Pay it Forward? Well that is sort of what happened to me. I was in my speech class and was sort of having a bad day and we had to give speeches about ourselves and everyone got done except for one guy so the teacher said that he would have to give it to just her after class. I didn't really think this was fair because first of all i think that that would be more nerve racking to give it to just your teacher and second of all everyone got to tell what they were about but he wouldn't get to. So me and about five other people decided that we would stay after class and listen to him. He was so thankful and amazed that people that he didn't know would do that for him. Just the look on his face was enough for me. And i got to meet some new people and found out that they were really cool. So that put me in a way better mood. Then as i was walking to my next class i started thinking about how when people walk by each other they look down or act like they are busy so they don't have to make eye contact. Why is that, why are we so scared to just look someone in the eye and smile or say hello?? So i decided that everyone who walked by me i would look at them and smile and say hi. I am sure that some people thought i was weird but i really didn't care. I was just hoping that maybe soomeone else would be like wow that was nice and then they would do the same thing. I was hoping for some sort of domino affect.

I wrote all this to my mom in an e-mail just to tell her what was going on and just to say hi. I wrote that i hoped this brought her a lil happiness and hoped she was having a good day. She wrote back later on that day and said that she was actually having a bad day because she was thinking a lot about issues that were going on in our family. But she said that after she read that she felt much better

So if anyone ever reads this i hope that maybe you got inspiration or it just made you think. If not well that's ok too. I hope that you have a great day anyways!!!!